I go by numerous different names– Derpy being one of them– but for this sake, I’ll use the name I want: Christina. Throughout my years alive, I’ve been almost constantly bullied or in other ways down for me being different. For as long as I can remember, I’ve been suffering from Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder, Paranoid-type Schizophrenia, Dissociative Identity Disorder, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and more.
It’s hard coming around from day to day, and numerous times I just wanted to escape it all. When I found your song, it touched me greatly… it was the only thing I can look at and say that someone understands me. I would like to say that I cried while listening to it to show how much it touched me, but.. due to my problems, I found it extremely difficult to cry, and I just ended up balled up in the corner of my bed, refusing to move for a few hours (or days).
To this day I’m still bullied, and I’ve found myself never going outside on my own free will unless it’s to take out the trash, check the mail, go to school, etc. I do compose music, as well as write poetry/passages and draw, even though I find none of them good. I only have one composition out, and it’s a song that was composed to represent my past. It doesn’t have a single word in it, and is composed purely of piano… but I feel it could get the point across… probably.
Thanks for reading,
Here is Christina’s song, “Recurring Wounds”. It’s quite good, I think!
Also, to Christina directly: I know things can be really tough, and it can seem like they’re tough forever– but things -do- get better. It can take time, and sometimes it takes a thing like finishing school to bring about change, but you’ll get there. I believe in you!