My lost spark and how you all helped me rekindle it

Golden FussHello, my name is Harley Hill, but I go by Vulpe Ljubavi mostly online. I just wanted, no, “needed” to thank this site, all the wonderfully inspiring stories and people on it, and a very special thanks to the whole brony community.

I guess I should start from the beginning.
When I was growing up, I never could connect with people the way other kids could. I was always seeing affection and was never able to relate on a human level. I could love and adore animals of all kinds, but projecting that love onto a emotional relationship with another person was inconceivable at the time. It seemed like my animal world and my human world were different universes.
But then I found a way to bridge them.
I found out about furries when I was fourteen, and had many friends within weeks. Something that I could never have dreamed of prior to that. And when I was sixteen I met someone, we were together for two years before we found out he had cancer.
When he dumped me I was happy that he could go live his life the way he wanted before he goes. But that was the last time I felt happiness. The spark of love and life inside me had died and I didn’t care anymore.
Until I caught a glimpse of My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic on TV. I can’t remember which episode it was, but I remember it had a song on it that struck a chord in me that I had forgotten existed. And so, from 2012 to a few weeks ago when I saw the episode, I had been faking my emotions to hide them, to pretend I was okay and nothing was wrong. But when I saw that song, I truly smiled.
 Later that night I realized after watching half the first season on YouTube, that I could unlock my emotions though friendship and music. And when I realized that, it was like someone (somepony) had poured gasoline on my brain and lit a match (in a good way), because my emotions have been flooding back to me ever since. I cry freely, laugh wholeheartedly, love tenderly, I ‘feel’ again and its thanks to you all.
This is the first time I’ll be saying this publicly but here it goes.
My name Hardly Hill from Beattyville Kentucky, I am a brony! and my pony is Golden Fuss!
THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR HELPING ME. (I’ve never spoken to any of you, but your words have spoken to me)
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7 comments to My lost spark and how you all helped me rekindle it

  • Devin Freeman  says:

    This is a great story, Harley (or Hardley, sorry, there’s two names on here), it’s good that you found happiness :) by the way, nice pony name! Do you have a picture of your pony? I’d love to see it!

    • Golden Fuss  says:

      *facehoof* i can not beleive i missed that > , >
      my name is “harley” i assure. and can i ask that the error be changed…..if at all possible?… Harley?

      it’s…..kind of embarrasing to be called “hardly”.

  • the girl with music in her heart  says:

    This is a great story.

    • Golden Fuss  says:

      Thank you so much for saying that. I consider myself rather insignificant. So the fact that two people have already commented on this means worlds to me. thank you. Truly, thank you.

      • the girl with music in her heart  says:

        yeah its no problem. I have my own story on here and I lvoe to read the comments I get on it even if its only a few.

  • Emily Lumsden  says:

    I’m not crying “sniffle” it’s.. It’s these onions…! I’ve read this 14 times in total and I can’t help but feel happy for you! Inspirational!! (; (Btw, brohoof!)

  • Phillip Loveland  says:

    I lost a boyfriend to suicide, and your story touched me. I’m so glad you are a brony. If I never became a brony, I don’t think I could’ve handled the grief. /)

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