First I would like to express my feeling about the PMV, this really mentally touched me– it’s like me in a nutshell.
That’s because I never actually had a great past. I was born with bad eyes, already -11 / -12. I also appeared to be born with autism. It made my school days very difficult, because the first time I went to school, I already found myself being “different” than the other kids.
My parents were fighting as well. They broke up, and my dad ended up in the mental hospital because of it. He hit and kicked me when i was at his place if i didn’t want to tell him about what my mom was doing.
The breakup of my parents, and seeing my dad mentally unstable broke me mentally as well. I never told anyone about the abuse, I just let it happen. After a few years it became less frequent, but the mental scars were still there.
I went to high school and was bullied. I liked things other people found weird, ponies as an example. I never was able to finish high school, and I basically ended up being declared unsuitable for work by the government.
I took 2 years refining my ponysona after that, and I made it a total reflection of myself: what I would be in another reality.
I promised myself to help others instead of myself, and that I always value them as more important then myself.
In mid-winter, I walked past a homeless person in a side ally, and he had nothing to protect himself with. After my parents went to sleep, I took basic stuff, like bed sheets, warm clothes, and some food to the homeless person. He basically burst out in tears when he saw me, as the little boy, having stuff for him, and he ended up talking about his past and how he became this way. He appeared to be ripped clean by his ex wife, putting him in debt. He tried to work his debt off, but then he broke his arm, and wasn’t able to do much.
I needed to go back home, but I kept seeing him a couple of times. However, after a few weeks, he was gone, the ally was empty, and I haven’t seen him since. I just hope he’s doing alright…
In the time since, I kept helping people with depression or other problems, by being there as a friend. I also payed for a part of my friends heart transplantation.
He ended up waking me up at 4AM in the morning through a phone call to tell me he made something for me. He made a beautiful artwork of my ponysona:
I basically (repeating words is a downside of my autism) broke down mentally, because it was so beautiful. We kept talking, and talking. We were pretty much the same– mentally, thoughts.
So when I saw this amazing animation, it caused me to actually get those flashbacks (photostatic memory, as part of my handicap). I want to thank you [BronyDanceParty] and the creator of the song [Forest Rain]. It told me I need to enjoy what I do best: helping others.
It kinda freaked me out when I thought about this:
I’m “kind” to everyone, even unknown people.
I’m “loyal” to my friends and being there for them.
I’m “generous” to everyone.
I’m “honest” to everyone.
I’m “funny / laughable” to everyone.
I follow the 5 elements, but sadly I’m not Magical. =/
I hope this explains enough. Thanks for allowing me to openly talk about all this.
Best of luck to all of you!